Tuesday, August 30

Another day of double holding... Me in the morning and David tonight.  When I arrived this morning they mentioned that Isaac had lost 15 grams from yesterday.  However, they removed is pick line which was what helped him get extra nutrients.  Since they are increasing his breast milk (today @ 22 ml every 3 hours) they said he didn't need the extra nutrients.  They told me today that they think that his being fiesty and moving around so much is what is causing him to lose weight.  However, today's nurse talked to the respiratory specialist about the C-PAP.  Since they adjust it so much in order to keep it bubbling it is causing him to be agitated.  The specialist said that it doesn't need to bubble all the time.  Therefore, when the nurse left him alone when it wasn't bubbling he still stayed at the levels that his vitals needed to be and he wasn't as agitated.

So we are believing for Isaac to gain weight consistantly and to progress as he needs to.  I am going to try going to church for the first time tomorrow night since August 24... I have been able to watch it online but it isn't the same as being in a service.  However, since I am tired by 7 PM these days, we'll see... All I know is that sometimes this new lifestyle that I am living is numbing.  I don't feel as if it is really me who is doing this regiment... get up in the morning, take ari to the babysitters, go to the hospital, come home, work for a few hours at home, go back to the hospital, go to bed...oh and in the middle of all that, pump every 2 hours...one day I will look back and really think it was all a dream as I chase my little man around the house, send him off to his first day of school, watch his first athletic competition and so on!!!  Needless to say.... I cannot wait for that day.  sniff....